so... i'm very sad; and since sadness is not an emotion i frequent very often, i don't know how to handle it. last night something changed between ben and me. i don't know what it quite is or how it happened, but now it's there, and i am sad. we talked this evening and apparently everything is "fine", but it doesn't feel fine. i wish i weren't here, and i wish i didn't have to facilitate a stupid floor meeting with a stupid ice-breaker in two hours. someone please give me guidance.