i don't think that i'll ever get over my middle child syndrome. lately, i've been feeling a bit neglected, and i keep wondering, "would people treat abby the same way?" i know it's stupid to even ask the question--we're pretty much grown up now and there are so few things to complain about in my life. i have my health, and i'm happy, excluding long shifts at j.crew or overwhelming readings, but still, why does the question still pop in my head once in awhile? are the details of my siblings' lives forgotten as easily as mine? i realized this week that my parents came to see me at school only once during my years at asu. of course, i wish i would have seen them more, and i don't hold it against them for not coming, but would they have visited kate, abby, or chris more if they went away for school? i know, it's a dumb question, but i can't help but ask it. a lot of our relatives travelled to nebraska for kate's wedding last summer. why aren't people coming to mine? sometimes it doesn't feel good at all being the different one.

i think right now i'm experiencing one of those not so happy moments.